Fan hook. If you've ever wanted one thing and the complete opposite at the same time — this song is for you.
I recently got diagnosed as neurodivergent.
And honestly, that one piece of information explained my entire personality.
Because my whole life there has been this constant tug of war inside me. I crave novelty and adventure. I also crave structure and routine. I'll be sure I want one thing, get it, and immediately want the exact opposite. My friends and family have been saying the same sentence to me for as long as I can remember: I can't keep up with you.
For a long time I thought something was wrong with me. Like I was broken in some quiet way nobody could quite name. I tried to fix it. I tried to pick a lane. I tried to be consistent in the way other people seemed to be without trying.
None of it worked.
Then I found out I'm not inconsistent. I'm just wired differently. The contradiction isn't a flaw. It's the whole operating system.
So instead of trying to fix it, I wrote a song about it.